27 February 2008

for just one day, one moment even, if I could just hold her in my arms again and feel her short legs, ripe with babyfat, wrap around my waist. to have her soft curly hair brush my face as she nuzzles in closer to my neck and I smell that milky breath that, to this day, I know in my dreams. to have her pull Baby Fields closer to our hearts that are separated merely by the clothes we wear and to know that she is already learning to love. I sing and murmur love songs, songs that will lull her into that place known as Sleepy Town, where best friends are the ones with floppy ears, loved coats, and sometimes missing an eye, or a leg. Maybe this is our saving grace~these memories. To right all the times we were too impatient, too busy, too absent. Maybe these times of rocking chairs, lullabies, stolen kisses on the eyelids and nuzzles of the neck~memories take hold and we savor them and wish, oh how we wish, to have them once more. Just. One. More. Time. it is because of you that I believe in miracles~


Jenny said...

I'm trying so hard to remember and treasure those times...especially at 4:30 this morning when Noah did NOT want to go back to sleep :) I love you ~

The Feathered Nest said...

What a beautiful post, Nancy...I can remember being up in the middle of the night when my last two boys were newborns, and actually weeping because I knew how very fast it would be gone ~ you're so right, I just love the image you just posted!! xxoo, Dawn